Day 3

Can't believe it but today marks my 3rd day....don't think I can officially call myself a runner though yet, lol. Consistency might grow on me yet.

Yesterday was hard. Felt tired as soon as my feet hit the ground and thought to myself, "oh Lord, how is gonna go." I made it through with a few stops but in general surprised once again by my body's ability to tolerate suffering, lol. Its my mind that can't tolerate it. Luckily, I had some good music to vibe to and at points got nicely distracted from the negativity of my mind.

Keep sending your dua's, prayers, meditations and general good wishes...its helping.

Run4UrLife

Dear
Loved ones:

Greetings
of peace, love & healing. I've been battling a general lack of wellness,
thunder thighs, and my own bad habits. Well, I’m sick of allopathic medicine
and NOT feeling good so I’ve decided to return to my herbal roots & wisdom
and take it from there. So I saw my Naturopathic doctor (one of them), Dr.
Rafiq Abdul-Malik on Friday and feel revved up to start some new habits.
Thursday, Dec. 22, the longest night of the year, also added some vitality to
my spirit. I went to an amazingly healing event at ALL THE WAY LIVE in the
Gtown hood. It’s a raw food joint at the corner of Gtown n Walnut. The vibe was
raw, lyrical, historical, herstorical, soulful and love-field...it’s an
understatement to say I got lifted. The evening was topped off by spending some
sista-time with my former student, now friend, Anisah Locke. All of these
vibrations gave me the energy to take my own health in my hands and to seek the
guidance of a well-known healer here in Philly. So with re-newed faith in the
human beings divine ability to self heal through the mercy of God, I've started
the upward sojourn to vitality. Today
was Day 1 of the first run I've done in about 9 years! I felt
surprising good afterward so I think I did the right amount of pushing. I'm
also taking pre-natal Pilate class (I figured it would be easier than the other
Pilate classes...soooo wrong and that I wouldn’t be the biggest one in the
class…also, sooo wrong, cthu). I wish I could say I love my teacher but it’s
more like a love-hate situation…she seems to love me (or at least loves calling
my name) and I really detest her. Why the heck pre-natal class gotta be so
hard…smh. It’s suppose to be RELAXING, right??? Despite this kafuffle, I’ve
gone to 2 classes and survived…well, at least my face doesn’t hurt. After the
second class, I had no guilt in I treating myself to a massage. This might have
been the first time I felt NO guilt in that kind of splurge. It actually felt
necessary.

Well
friends, for the next 20 days or so I will be running, fasting, herbing, and
eating for vitality (mostly organic raw foods) and of course zikring. I'll need
some support and that’s where you folks come in. Send me a note or 2 or 3J to remind me to stop reading
about health and running (you know this is where I’ve gotten stuck the last few
years…on my couch, reading about HOW to do this stuff like getting off the
couch and putting one foot in front of the other is really rocket science...smh).

And
to help my type A plus whimsical self out I’ve signed up for the spring Broad
Street Run. Rock and I talked about he and I and our other siblings possible
doing this together….that would be memorable, lol.

Well,
it’s either the Broad Street Run or Climb Mont Blanc and recite lines from Mary
Wollstonecraft FRANKENSTEIN…the latter sounds much more like me and much more
romantic but I doubt if any of you or my friends would join me for the latter,
cthu.

I'm feelin blue but at least I got my shoes

I know. this title sounds silly but in the house on sun at 4:33pm and had to find some way to amuse myself but also i've found myself feelin fairly down of late and have to remind myself that it could be worse. a lot worse. So what I don't have pot to piss in and a window to throw it out, at least I have some shoes! Well, this isn't sounded quite a cheery as it did in my head:-(. Hmm. let's try it this way.

I'm grateful for:

• My drumming teacher (He got a new drum for me. the one I had is a kids drum. I asked him if I could break the payment into 2 payments and he replies, "Oh, didn't I tell you. It's your 40th bearth day gift!" I said, "Absolutely not!" "He said, "Absolutely yes" and when I tried to pay him he nearly took my head off. WHAT AN UNEXPECTED GIFT! I wasn't sure how I was gonna make it to the next pay check BUT I knew I had to pay him back. Well, once again, Allah took care of me.


• The opportunity to volunteer with my favorite organization--Teaching for Change--last Friday. It was awesome. They were one of the exhibit at the Coalition For Community Schools Conference. I met a lot interesting people, sold some books, saw some great books to put on my summer reading, got a free t-shirt (which I am wearing at this very moment) and a free book. The woman must have saw me eyeing it bc as were closing down I saw the book near my things. Thinking it got separated from the other books we put away I made a beeline to the boxes. The woman stops me and says, "thats for you! We made several sales that were definitely all you." Wow. a wonderdful compliment AND a free book. I was on cloud nine for the rest of Friday!


• My fam--I have one!


• My sistas--we are all crazy in our own way, get on each others nerves, and yet we still wanna hang with each other. I know we haven't seen each other a lot these last months or even talk the way we use to but I know this is temporary. I miss you all (even Eva has she's been nannying this last week, lol).

So, sistas, what's on your list of things you are grateful for?